GINA's VOICE IS BORN OUT OF PRAYERS AND THIN AIR

Editor's note: GINA's voice is so old inside me I can't even recall when it was born. Gina was an answer to my prayers! 

I am trying to be positive and confident this morning. After meditating

I take a walk to boost my spirits and start reciting the P words:

Peaceful

Positive

Playful

Patient

Poppy

Productive

PRAYER

Here is my Prayer: that I may wake up every single day saying “Hear I AM, Here I AM,” greeting the day with wonder and joy, the way Thich Nhat Hanh suggests in Peace is Every Step.

I am accomplished in so many ways, it’s just a matter of feeling that accomplishment and not the terrible fear and criticism and other harsh emotions I grew up with.

Caring

Competent

(Claudia)

Content

And now along comes

Gina, who I am asking for help:

Grace

Gratitude

Gay

God-like

Good at smiling and enjoying life

Greets each day with joy and positivity.

Gumption

How do I find a voice for myself that is authentic and also, strong? How do I step up to this PTSD and say not me, not anymore? Maybe I need a character and a story to help me do this. 

EDITOR'S INTERRUPTION, July 10, 2020: GINA IS THE CHARACTER, Silly girl, AND SISTER MYSTERIES IS THE STORY, or at least the first story!)

So once again I am asking Gina for help!! Help me get in touch with my anger towards my father and mother so that I can then plunge into the extraordinary love I have for

both of them.